Look Mom my arm makes noise....

Last night I randomly picked up a cute rattle while standing in line to check out last night at Babies 'R Us...I've been trying to give Isabella toys and nothing really seemed interesting to her....after her bath last night she was laying on her little mat and I thought I'd try the new rattle...it was the cutest thing...She was just holding it and when she moved her arm....she froze and stared at her hand for a minute...then did it again...it was hilarious watching her figure it out....Once she realized she had control of the noise she was elated...she was so excited and making the most adorable little noises! I never could have known how much joy she would bring me!

I have a license to give medication....

So at first I swore everyone that I told about this to secrecy, but after talking to a few friends and realizing I'm not the only person that's done this...and now that all is well it's a good story.

Friday afternoon I took Isabella to the doctor because her cold wasn't getting better and she had a little rash on her face. The doctor told me that sometimes a rash is a sign of an ear infection (which I've never heard before) and decided to go ahead and give her an antibiotic. I go and get it filled and when I get home I realize the Walgreens didn't give me the little dropper for her medicine. So I look through the stuff I bought and found a little medicine cup with a nipple on it in my first aid kit. I looked at the side and see that it's graduated with mls one side and tsp on the other....She needs 2mls...so I get the medicine out and proceed to pour to the 2 on the cup...I thought to myself at this point "that looks like a lot" I check it again yep at the 2...I bring it over to Isabella and she is such a good baby takes the medicine without any trouble...right as she finishes it hits me....OMG I just gave her 2tsp instead of 2ml....I immediately convert that in my head and realize that 2tsp=10ml which would be 5x the amount she needed...I felt like all the blood drained out of my body and I froze...this lasted about 5sec then I immediately started calling people...I called my mom then the doctors office....I felt like I was on hold forever (I'm sure it wasn't that long) and while I was waiting I was googling side effects and found the poison control number. I was almost hysterical at this point...the doctor got on the phone and was so nice he told me that the worst thing that could happen was that she will vomit or have diarrhea but she will be totally fine. I think I asked him if he was sure 30 times and he continued to reassure me that it was ok...So after I talked to him just to be sure I called poison control, the man that answered was very calming as well and told me that she would be fine and not to worry....This whole time Isabella is just sitting in her bouncer watching me...When I got off of the phone and the adrenaline started to fade I just started to cry...I picked up Isabella and held her and cried I don't think I have ever been so scared in my life. I was mortified I could not believe that I had given her the wrong dose...I am such a perfectionist I felt like I had failed my beautiful little girl...while I was holding her crying she looked up at me and gave me a big adorable smile (this was the first time she had ever smiled that big) and I just started to laugh. It was like my little baby was saying "Mom why are you crying....I'm ok" I will never forget that smile....After talking to a few of my friends that have babies they all told me a story about a time when they had done something similar it started eased the failure feeling a little...I think I said "but I have a license to give people medication" a million times that day...so the lesson I learned from all of this is...now I'm the mommy not the nurse. I'm sure the mistake will never happen again and now it'll be a good story to tell her later!
It's been a few days now and she is doing great...the cold is almost gone too! She is doing wonderful and I am preparing to go back to work next week. I'm nervous and sad to leave her (thankfully she is staying with my sister who I trust with my life) but I think it will be nice to get back to work.

It's already been over a month...

I can't believe my little baby is already over a month old. She weighs 8lbs 9oz (2lbs since birth) now and is doing well. She has a little cold and it breaks my heart to listen to her little cough. I love being a mom more than I ever could have imagined. I just look at her beautiful little face and fall in love all over again. She is starting to interact a little more now, I can't wait until I get a real smile. I've seen a few little ones in her sleep but no real smiles yet. I'm headed back to work in a couple weeks and am pretty sure there will be some tears the first few mornings. It's already going by so fast...I could just sit and look at her all day...she is so sweet...I will try and remember this when she gets sassy haha. Here is an updated picture of her!