Being a Mom lets me be a little kid...

So I've decided that being a Mom has allowed my inner child to surface...hahaha I know most of you are thinking I've always been a goof but now I have an excuse...I get to wander through the Disney store and people don't think it's for me hahahha and I get to have a ball pit in my basement and push Isabella around on her little car and then watch her laugh as I tried to fit on it to ride myself...she really has brought me so much happiness...we were playing the other day I decided the moment needed to be captured so I found a box and set up the camera and put it on continuous shooting and got some cute shots...they definitely aren't "perfect" pictures but if you look closely at her smile it doesn't get much more perfect than that!!

It's funny I think that as much as this blog is for Isabella...for her to have a keepsake. I have a friend that says as the Mom you are the "memory keeper" and I want Isabella to have these when she is older...I think it's also good for me...I seem to blog about happy things when I'm stressed about others...it's like my way of reminding myself that everything is really ok!  Tonight Isabella didn't want to sleep and I can't help but find myself getting frustrated it isn't always wasy being here by myself....but it's more than worth it and now my sweet little angel is sleeping soundly in her bed and in the long run it's worth the work...

The Nutcracker

Over the weekend a sweet little girl that is very dear to my heart was in her first performance of the Nutcracker...Lets just start by saying that Olivia did a wonderful job she really shines!!  I was debating on if I should take Isabella or not...on one hand she loves music and lights and I really thought she would enjoy it....bbbbuuuttt on the other hand she is 1 (wow still not used to that) and doesn't exactly have the longest attention span....so after some deliberation I decided to take her and hope everything worked out....I know that Moms like to brag on their kids but Isabella was the best baby ever at the performance...once the house lights were dimmed and the show started my sweet little baby was glued to the stage....she was entranced by the show...I really think I might have a little dancer or maybe musician on my hands...if you can't tell I'm rooting for dancer...after intermission she was dancing and clapping on my lap and I couldn't help but see a little sparkle in her eyes when the audience applauded...I was so proud of her we even snapped a couple pictures of her watching the show!  Maybe one day I will be posting pictures of her first dance performance....not gonna lie I just got tears in my eyes....hahahahahah

Dear Isabella

Dear Isabella,
I can't believe you are one....I remember this time last year I was holding you in the hospital feeling very unsure of what to do...should I hold you or let you sleep in your bassinet...I remember the what if's in my head...what if I don't hear you cry....what if I can't make you feel better...what if I'm not good at this....what if what if...I remember thinking you were beautiful and that I could not believe that you were here...I remember it being so quiet in the room and I was just listening to you breath and it took my breath away...You still take my breath away today...You are sleeping now and just like a year ago today I'm amazed by you...amazed that in 12 short months you have learned to roll over, sit up, stand, walk, talk, climb, run and so much more...you have changed how I look at things...I have so many hopes and dreams for you, but mostly I hope that you know I'm always here and that I'm proud of you!  I hope that you always smile like you do now, with your whole face, you really are so happy...This past year has been amazing, there is no better feeling in the world than one of your hugs....I can't help but smile when I look at you...I can already see your determination yesterday you couldn't figure out how to get up onto your chair I watched you try and try again...you took a step back looked at it and figured it out...I hope you always take on things like that...just take a step back and try again!  You have taught me so much, you have taught me that there is something bigger than me out there, that I cannot control everything, you have taught me to never give up on what I want, that sometimes a bath can fix everything, the best pictures aren't always the "perfect" ones, what true love feels like...and I'm sure there is so much more I'm forgetting right now...Looking at you sleep right now I just can't get over what a little angel you are...I love you more than I can ever tell you...I hope you are having sweet dreams my little princess happy 1st birthday!!
Love
Your Momma

Look how you have changed beautiful girl!!