Not cut out to be a surgical nurse....

So today at work...the doctor I work with is out of the office so thursday is normally just my random day. I work on paperwork for people needing time off or help other nurses if they need it...well at lunch time the NP said she was going to assist with a C-Section at the hospital and I said "that would be neat to see" so she told me to tag along....so there I am so pumped I met the Pt first to make sure she didn't mind me being in there (super nice people) and then got all garbed up and headed in...at first it was so exciting to watch them drape the Pt and get all the instruments out...they start the procedure and I'm amazed at how little blood there is....the NP and the Doc are explaining the different layers they are cutting through and talking me through the procedure...it was awesome....(this is where it gets interesting) at this time I'm starting to notice that my face is getting super hot underneath the surgical mask....then I realize that all of me is getting pretty hot and then the clammy feeling starts to sink in....I'm thinking to myself "come on KC get it together" so I choose to ignore it and keep watching....well the next thing I know the surgical RN looks over at me and asks me if I'm ok....and I was about to nod yes....(this is where I'm getting told what happens) she pushes me backward onto a stool and then after our NP yells to her that I'm pregnant too lowers me to the floor....where she so fabulously put that I looked like I was "waving the wheat" which being a huge KSTATE fan made me feel even more crappy....then the poor pt asks "is the nurse ok" it was awful....it's hard to embarrass me but this did...so it's official I'm just getting it out there I will not be trying to specialize in surgery.....it is so strange to me that I lost it, I mean I've seen a ton of vaginal deliveries never got sick....and have changed a ton of wounds that look much worse than this c-sec did today.....=( everyone keeps telling me it's because I'm pregnant and blah blah blah, but my ego took a hit today....hahaha...before this little incident I had been saying that I didn't want to have to have a c-section and now I'm sure of it....

Chatting Baby

I had a doctors appointment today and they did an ultrasound just to make sure all is well.....and it was hilarious to the little one "talking" I know that's not actually what was going on but it was hilarious, her little jaws were flappin! I know that most people will have something funny to say about that. Must be like her Momma because Mac is a quiet guy...haha....its so odd for me to be a patient I feel silly worrying about all the little cramps and stretches that I'm feeling, but it feels like my nurse brain just flies out the window when it comes to my own body....who knows...

This baby shopping stuff is overwhelming....I am starting to feel unprepared...I know I know there is plenty of time before she makes her grand appearance but for some reason the panic of making sure that everything is "ready" is getting to me...who knows

Bitter Sweet

Mac found out to day that he's is going to be getting the job that he's really wanted. The only sad part is now it's real that he's leaving again. Don't get me wrong I'm very excited for him and I know that it will all be fine and work out. It's just a little hard to think about being apart again. Its such a strange feeling...I'm so conflicted....I'm proud of him for going after what he wants and getting it.....there is a little part of me that just wants him to be home at night. Thankfully he will be home in time for baby, but then "our" time will really be cut down because it's going to be so busy around here. I'm sure it will all work out...

First Post....YAY!!!!

So at the suggestion of a new friend, I've decided to start a blog. Hmmmmm where to start...well I will just catch everyone up to speed, sometime in the middle of March after I'd laughed cried and screamed all in the same five minutes I took a pregnancy test. They say that you have to wait 3 minutes however that is a load of crap because in 30 sec it said "pregnant". I always wondered how I would react at that moment.....I've always wanted children, would I cry or jump up and down, or be all smiles. My reaction was to scream for Mac at the top of my lungs....hahahah he said he knew what was up before he even got to me. He knows me pretty well....then I proceeded to cry, I didn't know why I was crying or if was joy, terror, or both. We weren't trying to get pregnant so it was definitely a surprise. It was something we wanted just not at that moment. Mac was wonderful (of course) he's so calm and loving. I have no idea what I would do without him most days. I was in denial for a while don't get me wrong having a baby is a wonderful thing, I was just completely in freak out mode. At that point I wasn't thinking of the exciting things...I think I thought of every bad thing that might possibly happen first hahahaha I wonder how many other pregnant women have that same moment. So now here we are about 21 weeks pregnant and we are having a little girl. I'd like to set a few things straight about pregnancy first though....things I think people don't tell you. 1. when you are pregnant walking up stairs makes you tired even if you were in fabulous shape before 2. it's super common to get leg cramps in the middle of the night that wake you up thinking your 200lb Mastiff is chewing on your leg 3. you cry for no reason at all....haha just ask Mac about that one. We've decided to name her Isabella Jo and we can't wait to meet her and see where this adventure takes us... I'm excited to share all of this on my new blog. I'm new and this so bear with me it may take me a while to figure it out haha