Bed Time is Evil

I'm frustrated....it's almost 10:00pm and I'm sitting at the kitchen table listening to Isabella fight sleep...she's not crying shes just bouncing or making noises with her hands or trying to get the baby monitor and toss it (knowing I will have to come int there and fix it)....I'm just running out of ideas...if I rock her she just wants to play with me and she does everything to stay awake to include pulling my hair and pinching the back of my arm (I know I need to get back to gym Iz but jeez)...I've tried just laying her down...I can't do the cry it out crap I just can't it's torture and I get less done because I'm a blubbering mess because she is upset...I just don't know what to do....I'm a such a perfectionist and lack patience (that's an understatement) and I just don't know what to do next...I know she is exhausted she just refuses to sleep....why I have know idea...I'd give anything for a good nights sleep...it sucks because part of me feels guilty for complaining because she means everything to me I dont' want to come off like I'm just complaining about her because that isn't my intention...I'm just frustrated...really that's all I can say I don't even know what to say next...I just feel like I'm not good at this part of "mommahood" I just don't understand why...she didn't take a late nap today...she has on comfy jammies, she is full, she had a bottle, she has her "pup pup" and favorite blankie....but she just won't sleep....any Mommies out there have any ideas...it's just hard sometimes....really hard....I'm feeling a tad defeated...it's not a good feeling....I just wish I could figure out how to help her sleep easier...aahhhh....
We went and watched her Uncle Cord cheer tonight...she loves the music especially the drums...whenever they would start to play she wanted down so she could dance...she always steals the show...you can tell she loves the attention she gets and is already playing to the crowd!  She makes me laugh...she has such a big personality!  Wait.....it's quiet.....SHES ASLEEP!!!  Thanks for listening to me vent blog world!!

I stand corrected....

Brown Brown Bear is Isabella's new favorite book...I can "read" it to her without even looking at the pages now hahaha.....for those of you that haven't read it (fix that it's a classic), it's a repetitive book Brown Brown Bear what do you see...I see a red bird looking at me....blah blah blah...so at one point in the book there is a teacher, but since I read it to her I've been saying Momma instead of teacher teacher what do you see...well when I was reading to her the other night I was being lazy and just said Teacher instead of Momma and my 14mo old slammed her little chubby hand down on the book and said "NO...MOMMA"  it took me a second to realize what she was talking about and then it hit me...I had just been corrected!  I think I'm in trouble...

The BIz

Since our girls are practically joined at the hip (already) my sister and I affectionately call them "The BIz" for B and Iz come on laugh it's funny...hahah They are going to hate us for that but whatev that's what Moms are for right??  I'm so thankful that they have each other...they are super close and it's adorable to see how much they love each other...they both get super excited when the other one arrives and sometimes I have to sneak out of the house so Boston isn't standing at the door screaming for us!  Its nice to know that they will always have someone that has their back...sometimes it's hard when it's a sibling because it's natural to have competition and "hate" the other one, hopefully since they are cousins it won't be so bad...they are my sister and I's children though so I wish them well hahhaha...Boston loved Isabella immediately she wanted to hold her in the hospital and when they took her away she cried....isn't it funny how little ones just know that they are supposed to love someone!!  I can't wait to watch them grow up together I adore my niece so much and am thankful that Isabella has her...

Croup can't even keep her down...

So my little lady is a tough cookie...Monday she started coughing so I made her a doctors appt...even though she wasn't feeling good at my sisters she was having a melt down to go outside and play with the other kids...Sammie said she was standing at the glass door banging and crying to come outside....so sad...so my sister lets her go outside...so even though she is coughing her head off she was running around laughing and playing...I guess she knew she couldn't waste the beautiful day!  Well I've decided she should have named her Grace because the sweet girl can't take 5 steps without falling...well of course on the day I have to take her to the doctor she wipes out and hits her little face on my parents front steps...which just happen to be concrete...so here is what my sweet angel looked like at the doctors office...

I feel like I should have worn a shirt that said "I promise I don't beat my kid" hahahahah She is hilarious!  Anyway so we found out she had croup...yuck...it totally sucked...so we spent that night rotating between a steamy shower and then bundling up and going outside to breathe the cold air....it was a long night but thankfully we just stayed home and cuddled the next day...Isabella is already back to her old self...Momma is a little under the weather but I'll live...so today she was showing off her new fork skills it cracks me up how it seems like she is always learning something new...so with croup and a bruised face she is still all smiles while she is eating tonight...I wish I was this resilient Ha Ha

Goodnight Baby

Every night I rock Isabella to sleep...I've caught some grief from some people about this...haha I've heard that I'm going to always have to if I keep it up...and that she needs to put herself to sleep...however because of the new sweet habit that has developed I can't let it go...Every night while I'm rocking (or trying to wrestle depending on the night) Isabella to sleep right as she is about to doze off she opens her eyes really wide and reaches up to touch my face and says (in the sweetest little voice) "Ma Ma"...I get tears in my eyes every time...it's moments like this that make it all worth it...so I'm going to continue to rock her to sleep she's not going let me hold her forever so I'm going to live it up while I can!  

So I went on my first mini vaca without my little princess...not gonna lie I was a mess...I went over every possibly scenario in my head before we left...got my Mom a POA for medical care...explained to her what she liked to sleep with and what she likes to eat...it's not like she doesn't see her everyday and raised 3 kids of her own...plus countless others (she might be a teacher haha) I just couldn't help myself we were barely gone 48 hours but I missed her like crazy!  She had a great time though...she got to go shopping with Grandma and stay up late haha my Mom was sweet and sent me tons a pics here are a few...thanks Mom you made it so much easier!!
 

 All Smiles

Peek A BOO

Happy Girl

Sleepy Time

Christmas

I can't believe how different Isabella was this Christmas....it's crazy to think that last year she was pretty much a lump hahah and now as I'm typing this she is running down the ramp of her new roller coaster crazy baby...in a year she has changed so much I can't believe how much she is just like a little sponge soaking up everything around her...to watch her is amazing she seems to learn something new every minute (which is scary)....it blows me away...we had such a good time with wonderful friends and family...it is nice to know how loved she is...it was nice to spend time with everyone!  She is so lucky to be surrounded by so many people that are excited to watch her grow and show her how special she is!  Christmas isn't about the gifts and I hope as she grows up she understands that!  She was hilarious with the presents though...whenever she opened one or anyone else for that matter she would say "OOOOO" or "WOOOW" before she even say what it was...I haven't laughed so hard in a long time!!  I'm so thankful that her and Boston have each other they were hilarious....they are going to be more like sisters than cousins!! We made it through the busy day with minimal meltdowns...I hope everyone had a great Christmas and Happy New Year!!